Being that this is really my first blog entry that will focus on pregnancy, I will give a brief run down of my history & past experiences, so everyone feels 'up-to-date' with where I'm at...
Most of you know I gained MUCH more weight than required in my first pregnancy 6 years ago (think of what a plastic glove looks when you blow it up - yep, that's what my hands looked like! 30kg gain to be exact. Yes. You read correct. 30kg)
That pregnancy ALSO resulted in becoming a Mummy to an amazingly beautiful & cheeky little girl, and looking back, it's still an experience I am grateful to have had as it made me hungry to educate myself & learn so I could change my habits. Within two years of hard work, I shifted that 30kg + an extra 5kg. Being the fittest, and healthiest I had ever been in my adult years.
I am now 20 weeks & 4 days pregnant with our second baby, a little boy! I have gained a total of 5.7kg so far.
However, let's break it down - be real, raw & totally honest - I am constantly worrying about the weight gain. This might be 'shallow' to be concerned about what seems to be such a minor thing, but having been there before, I know how awful it feels.
You suddenly realise you have 34 weeks ahead of you (by the time you know you're pregnant) where you need to put on weight... but not too much... annndddd...you need to remain active, but can't be 'too' active...
So, how on earth do I get this right?
There is a lot of hype in the air surrounding pregnancy at the moment - everyone seems to be pregnant! And the pressure to look like we have only swallowed a ball is IMMENSE. No one has to 'say' that to you, but it is everywhere - on the TV, on Instagram, on Facebook - everyone wants to look like a model while they are building a little person.... and that's not really that easy to do!
No one likes to look chubby, feel judged or uncomfortable.
Then add to that, that we are powerless as we watch our bodies transform into a baby-making oven. We don't really know where our bodies are going to widen, store fat, how we will carry our babies - it's pretty overwhelming watching it all unfold and all you can do is - your best.
I have NEVER been 'tiny'. I have however, been healthy, strong & athletic - which is just my frame. It is easy for me to put on weight, but also easy to lose it when I set my mind to it. It is a constant juggling act to find the balance that keeps me in the 'middle'... somewhere... feeling comfortable & happy.
I have needed to give myself a reality check a number of times the last couple of months...
This tends to help me pull my head in a bit when I start to panic! Yes, it is only 9 months of your life - I am being blessed with another healthy baby and I am eternally grateful for this - but if I am to keep this real - losing weight (a lot of it) is really hard work. Especially with a brand new baby at home, and recovering from a Caesarian. So, understandably, I don't want to go back to that 'place' again. It is also no guarantee that I wont, just because my weight gain seems steady and on target at the moment - Mother Nature will do as she wishes!
So, moving on to how I have done my very best to keep it all under control...
All I know is that I have given it the best I can so far - I will allow myself a treat here & there but it's all controlled & accounted for.
Every 3-4 weeks, I'll do another entry about where I am at with the pregnancy, weight gain, exercise, and nutrition and how I am handling it all. If not for some 'light' reading, hopefully to comfort, inspire or sympathise with other mums who might be experiencing the same emotions.
So, until week 24...
Stay happy & healthy,